As a seasoned gamer who’s been through countless virtual worlds and narratives, I must say that Justin Baldoni‘s journey is a testament to the power of storytelling in real life. His ability to pour his heart and soul into his characters, especially Ryle Kincaid, showcases an acting prowess that transcends the silver screen. The emotional depth he brings to his roles is so profound that it seems like he’s not just playing a part, but living it.
Justin Baldoni got very candid about his time filming It Ends With Us and how one scene in particular led him to have a “near breakdown.”
The actor and filmmaker paid a visit to “How To Fail With Elizabeth Day,” during which they discussed not only his professional journey but also personal topics such as his encounters with sexual trauma and being diagnosed with ADHD at the age of forty.
Speaking about the movie version of Colleen Hoover’s popular novel, the actor from Jane the Virgin reminisced on shooting the part where his character, Ryle Kincaid, discovers Lily’s phone and notices Atlas’ number, which is displayed on it.
I found myself deeply emotional, feeling a mix of jealousy, heartache, and anger, yet never resorting to harm. His eyes radiated an underlying danger that was palpable. After witnessing that intense scene, I came close to a breakdown. I had to step away, allowing tears to flow and shivers to run through me as the pain was overwhelming.
He clarified that the actions taken by someone like Ryle are largely influenced by deep-seated feelings, such as the belief that his brother should have lived instead of him, rather than any specific deeds or actions per se.
He mentioned that it was quite challenging and took several months to complete. For some time, I felt like him, and he resided within me. However, I believe he’s mostly gone now.
Apart from acting in “It Ends With Us”, Baldoni was also responsible for directing and producing the film under his production company, Wayfarer Studios.
Elizabeth Day was told by him that being a director is quite isolating. You’re essentially at the pinnacle of the hierarchy, and in those quiet moments, everyone seems to have questions for you, yet no one wants to disturb you. You don’t have many people to confide in, and as the leader, it’s challenging to express your worries or anxieties because you’re expected to maintain composure.
In another part of the podcast discussion, the producer and director of “Five Feet Apart” shared candidly about a past incident involving sexual trauma and the ongoing challenges they’ve faced in dealing with its aftermath.
In college, he reminisced about encountering a woman whose company he became so entangled with that their tumultuous relationship consumed him entirely, leaving nothing else he cared for. To appease her desires, he transformed himself, ultimately losing touch with his true identity.
He stated that the situation became extremely emotionally abusive. In this relationship, he endured sexual abuse, which haunted him for the remainder of his life due to internalized beliefs that men cannot be sexually traumatized by women. This belief, unfortunately, is a result of societal conditioning that often presents sexual trauma as only occurring in the opposite scenario; however, it can and does happen in various relationships.
He went on to explain, “There are boundaries that can be overstepped, taking advantage of someone and being manipulative, but for 15 years after that, I’ve convinced myself that wasn’t what truly transpired. Instead, I believed I desired it and have experienced the same feelings and situations women have endured for a long time. I had hoped to remain chaste until marriage, and that’s as far as I’ll delve into the narrative.
Reflecting on it now, the versatile individual is thankful for the past events that transpired as they ultimately brought him to his current position, yet it took time for him to admit and accept those experiences in his life.
He stated, “It’s crucial for many men to appear strong, assure others of our safety and reliability, and shoulder the responsibilities as if the world depends on us. For some, accepting the possibility of being manipulated by a woman has been a burden for years. One day, my therapist posed a straightforward question: ‘Justin, you’ve devoted much effort in this field. If a woman shared that story with you, what would you label it?’
He mentioned, “That’s when I shattered. […] I abandoned my studies, relocated to Los Angeles, and it was the termination of that relationship that led me to pursue acting as a career.
Apart from mastering dance at the age of twenty and recalling a time in his youth when he felt like an outcast, Baldoni recently discussed with Day the revelation of his ADHD diagnosis earlier this year.
Four years after his therapist repeatedly suggested it, he finally agreed to be tested for the disorder. This test brought much-needed clarity to his life. He realized that his school days were largely devoid of pleasant memories because he faced constant struggles with subjects he didn’t find engaging and felt intellectually inferior. Although his parents could have arranged testing when he was younger, they likely wished to avoid making him feel different or disabled. It’s also possible that his parents themselves went undiagnosed with ADHD.
Baldoni stated, ‘They did their utmost,’ reflecting on his emotions which included anger, frustration, and sorrow over what might have transpired. In the end, he expressed understanding and kindness towards those individuals who were attempting to raise a son resembling them, undoubtedly a challenging experience.
Interestingly enough, receiving his diagnosis strangely brought him a sense of self-acceptance and enabled him to show kindness towards himself.
He can embrace a small boy who once felt isolated, misunderstood, as if he didn’t fit in with others when it came to learning. He struggled to manage himself, regulate his emotions, and stay focused. This individual is capable of cradling him, assuring him that he wasn’t to blame for his struggles, and reinforcing that the unique way his brain functions—the very aspects he despises about himself—will eventually be the keys to his success and prosperity.
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2024-12-04 23:55